My love for you is eternal

As I sit here this morning girls preparing to head to courthouse trying to relax my nerves as what the system has done to tear us apart and destroy our family has been extremely difficult for me.

Your father asked the courts to incarcerate me again last week on July 10th.  This is despite my compliance with the court's requests to the best of my ability despite my financial limitations.  He refused 100% of what I offered the courts including the 100% proceeds (after fees and taxes and penalties) from Alexandria's educational account and my IRA that he got the court to liquidate and then stated "the only way she will learn her lesson is to incarcerate her".

However, I saw this picture today and it rang true.

Nothing and NO one has the power to take away the love I have for my three daughters. NO amounts of threats, deterrents, or abuse will ever change that.
You girls give me strength to carry on and be the kind of mother you deserve.

I love you. No one can change that. Ever!

This song is for you girls

Watch "MISHKA - NEVA GIVE UP" on YouTube
I heard this today and it instantly made me think of you.
This song is for you girls. I love you. I miss you terribly. AND I will never give up on you no matter who threatens us or prevents us from being together, because with each new day, we are closer to being together again.
Love,
Your Mother
xoxoxo

Why you did noy hear from me on Wed May 22nd

Hi girls,
Been trying to find the best way to first apologize for not calling you on Wednesdsay, May 22nd and to explain to why I didn't.
First, I want you to know that you not getting a call from me wasn't my choice. Some may tell you it was my fault, but those people did not experience what I did.
As I told you, I have not been  physically well for a while now. You also know I have been desperately trying to find a way to see you. I miss you girls terribly.
There is a current pending appeal that limits and restricts my ability to having any kind normal relationship with you. Your father and courts are well aware I am financially destitute. Yet your father filed a motion specifically asking the courts to put me in jail despite this pending Appeal and his request was granted.
So the reason you missed a call was because I was placed at Framingham State Prison where I was not allowed to call you that evening.
I am sorry. I don't have any solutions. I have been trying, but sadly unsuccessful so far w/o money.
No one will tell me WHY you are kept from me despite my repeated requests.
I don't want to go into my legal issues with your father as that is between us and not you. However, I felt it was important you know why I was not able to call you.
Some day, I pray to be reunited with you. Hold you in my arms. Hug and squeeze you.
I wish I could explain the pain I feel not being a part of your life and teaching you the basic lessons in life.
I hope one day you can forgive me.
All my love, 
Your Mother
xoxoxoxo

Why Mother's Day is So Difficult Not Being With You

To my dearest children,

Yesterday was a difficult day for me as it is every year on Mother's Day. I miss you terribly and love you very much.

I decided to write these notes to you in hopes you understand some day the difficulties I may experience in my efforts to be reunited with you once again as well as for you to know that no matter how far the distance, I am always with you as we are connected in ways no one can ever change. 

It has been a rough Mother's Day not being with you girls and having little to no contact with you since September 2007 despite my ongoing efforts that have been twarted to prevent us from being together.

As my heart aches for you, my heart also goes out to all the other protective parents who have had their children stolen from them as well on this Mother's Day. I have learned when we can band together with one united voice is when change will happen. Our children are depending on it.

I love you dearly and there has not gone a day I have not missed you wishing I could hold you in my arms once again.

All my love,

Your Mother

xoxoxoxo

It is Because of You, I Get Back Up

It is because of you ... my three beautiful daughters .... that I find the strength to get back up.  I am doing my best to stay strong for you girls and will keep getting back up no matter how many times injustice smacks me back down. You my life!!!! I love you and miss you terribly.

I look forward to hopefully speaking with you this evening despite the fact we can not talk freely on the phone due to the tape recordings of our calls. Some day you will have the confidence to speak your truths. Hopefully through these note, you will gain the power and strengh to stand tall and speak YOUR truth.

All my love,

Your Mother

Thinking of you while down Nantasket

Hi girls,

I am walking along Nantasket Beach thinking about you and wondering what I could have done to be a better mother to you girls that would have prevented all the pain and suffering you have gone through.

I am sitting here wondering what tbe solution is to all this. I know we can not undo the damage to the mother daughter bonds ripped away from us unjustly.  However, I am saddened at my ability to find the solution.

It has been so long since I have held you in my arms, nursed you back to health, and cheer you on with your accomplishments. 

My heart is breaking at all the time we have lost together and unless a miracle happens, I am not sure if we will ever be together again.

All I can do is pray and search for a solution.

In the meantime, I do collect various shells, rocks, and other sea artifacts in hopes you will remember I love you and miss you and have never stopped fighting to be with you.

All my love

Your Mother

May 7th 2013

Good morning girls,

Been thinking about you and missing you. Yesterday was a short victory in court, but with all victories come a price.

Regardless of what happens and no matter what the battle, I love you.

I will never give up on you no matter what threats come my way. The truth in the end shall prevail. And that is what I hold onto until we can someday be reunited.

Shannon, remember what I have taught you about honesty?  No matter what, I will ALWAYS tell you the truth no matter what. I want you girls to do the same. Only the truth can set you free, and lies ALWAYS catch up with you.

In the meantime, know I love you and miss you terribly wishing I could hold you tight, protect you, and build wonderful memories together.

All my love always,

Your Mother